red nose clown..

my nose was bright red this morning..it made me look like a clown... wait a minute, i AM a clown... a foolish little clown who cries her eyes out in of the toilet cubicles..

its the tears... they changed the colour of my nose... i wish i could stop them from pouring out...

its the words... nasty words.

i could not stop my heart from breaking. i'm helpless.

i wish i could run away. i'm tired of falling. i wish i could just RUN, without slipping.

"sometimes its hard to keep on running, we worked so much to keep it going... "

I'm sick of working...

but i'm not going to give up.