my first friendster

Have u ever tried googling ur name? Well, u shud. Because u'll be amazed with what you will discover. And so I did today. I typed in 'iqa port dickson' . What did I come across?

MY FIRST FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT! haha.... and it was last updated in 2003. Now, the big question. When was the first time you created an account? When was the first time you were introduced to it? Haha. Not to brag or anything, but I got my first account when I was in Form 2. haha. I know, i know. its not a big deal. But, aww come on...think of it. How funny we were back then. Stupid things that we've done. Seriously,I had four friends in it because it wasnt really a big hit that time. Now, the funniest part, guess what name did I go by?

pretty funny heh? CHARMING. God, how did I came up with that name. And there were only 3 testimonials. One was from my sister, which I will share to u later. Oh, by the way, she was the one who created my account. hehe.

MY SISTER'S TESTIMONIAL:

at first i thought, who the hell is charming..??hahahaha ghupanyer adik aku yg seibu sebapa...aku tak tahu apa maksud charming pada dia..maybe dia nih charmed fanatic ker apa ker..tuh arr sbb dia buh charming kut... tapi yg aku tahu yg my only sista nih mmg charming.. w'pon aku slalu ejek dia jongang, dia tetap a charming sista to me. dia nih pandai buat lawak tahap bangang.ntah hapa hapa dia merapu tapi dlm kemarapuan beliau, dia excel dlm study dia.mmg power arr dia nyer results.age kita org beza 6 thn, tapi she's mature, non gedik and definately i can treat her as my fren. we share secrets tapi dulu aku tak leh langsung nak share secret ngan dia.. sket sket bagitahu emak.. chet !! tapi skrang dia dah besar, dia can tolerate with my secrets.apikut nih, aku ada sket tensen ngan minah nih laa.. dia kan.. sket sket suruh aku main badminton ngan dia.kalu terrer main takper laa..asyik asyik kena pungut shutel.chet !! lagi satu dia nih anak mak, sket sket mak... huh !!!! yg lagi satu aku perasan ngan minah nih, dia slalu control laa depan org, eventhough dia denies it, but aku tetap mengatakan dia control.. eh,sista be ya own self laa.. huhuhu jgn marah iqa, teguran ikhlas laa drpd kak lin nih.. bluekk !!!.. iqa slalu jugak megguna aku apabila aku balik drpd melaka. keje keje dia kat umah, sumer aku kena amik alih, dia duk goyang kaki.. chet!! marah nih.. !!! lagi satu, dia suka sangat kutuk bf aku.. lupalaa tuh sapa slalu beli cd utk dia.. HUH !! :Th iqa nih mmg aktif giler babeng kat sekolah.dgn pantun nyer laa,puteri islam dia laa, pengawas dia laa, chess kelab dia laa.. banyak btol aku tgk sijil dia kat dlm file dia.. mmg rajin laa membzkan diri.. tapi study dia tetap best.. adik aku nih mmg pandai..dia nih giler n'snyc. especially justin. aku slalu gak menjeles kan dia ngan mp3 n videoclip aku kat pc aku nih..abeh bengang laa kalu aku saja pasang kuat kuat lagu faberet dia.. hahhahahah.kesian iqa pikut.. !! well sista, u r great to be a fren to someone and good gf to a great boy...(hahhaha :Th ) kesimpulannyer ialah seorang yg berfikiran positive, jongang, giler n'sync, pandai, bz , anak mak, penakut.... well, baik buruk jongang pon dia tetap adik aku dunia akhirat.. i love u, iqa !!! muakcsss


Now this is what we call a real testimonial.

my little lamb

This is my little lamb and it is nameless. i just called it 'my little lamb'. oh. ignore my charger behind it.

Mak bought it for me when i was six. Believe me when I say this;

When I'm away, leaving just Mak and Abah at home, Mak will always cuddle my little lamb, pretending it was me. She said she misses me terribly when I'm not at home so she hugs the lamb as if she was hugging me. I know she's doing all this out of loneliness because there's no one else at home except for Abah who prefers watching a football game to spending time with Mak. I know she's feeling empty. Kesian Mak. Xda anak lain selain Iqa and Kak Lin. Nak harap Kak Lin balik, emm...mimpilah. Iqa pulak jarang balik sekarang ni sbb nak exam. Nanti lepas ni iqa cuti lama, kita main cak cak ye mak?

Oh. I miss home so much. I miss Mak, most importantly.

another friday..

today is another friday. time flies and before u knew it, next friday will come shortly. this post is written in aunty nancy's (my abah's youngest sister) house in shah alam. i have just arrived with Cik Lah (my mum's lil sister), this face showing weariness. i am feeling tired but i dont know what I have accomplished so far. highlights for next week, a) ASO test b) Networking test c) Genetic test d) morpho n networking presentation -- speaking of morpho,I should have presented yesterday and by now, I should have already spared myself from all the worries. e) submit database project -- my interphase sucks. i thought i had done it well but some errors continue to occur. i'd better get help from syam as soon as i get back to college. f) m3 test g) pop band-- n i'm NOT gonna miss out this one for the 2nd time. i missed last yr's show. duh.

last night, azra, nanuwil, nordin and I watched the nasyid competition which was held in DTC. our college representatives, well,..urm...they were quite okay, but some of those guys went 'kaku' and the main singer -- he went almost blank because he forgot the lyrics. i dun blame them. u'd do the same thing too once you're on stage. azra n nanuwil went back early so it was just me and nordin. of course he pissed me off with his craziest remarks throughout the performance and saying things that could make me red in the ears, half-annoyed and on the verge of hitting him with my drinking bottle. i dun really care. i'm already used to him and his ways. make me angry, make me mad, make me wanna scream, do what u want, i just dun care.

oh. gotta run. nak balik port dickson. will talk again soon.

Edensor

"Dia ingin ke tempat-tempat yang jauh, menemui beragam-ragam bahasa dan berbagai-bagai bahasa. Mengembara dan menentukan arah dengan membaca bintang-bintang di langit. Mengharungi padang dan gurun-gurun, melepuh dibakar matahari, terolang-aling dihentam angin dan menciut dicengkam dingin. Impikan kehidupan yang menggetar dan penuh dengan penaklukan"


"Dia dambakan kehidupan dengan kemungkinan -kemungkinan yang bertentangan antara satu sama lain seperti pelanggaran-pelanggaran molekul uranium; meletup tak terduga, menyerap, mengikat, berganda, berkembang, terurai, dan berserakan ke arah yang tak terduga"



"Maka, dunia adalah mozek-mozek yang rumit tetapi tidak mustahil untuk diselesaikan,selagi kita akur bahawa tidak ada sesuatu pun yang berlaku di dalamnya adalah kebetulan melainkan perancangan teliti Yang Maha Pencipta."


Ni antara ayat-ayat Andrea Hirata yang aku suka. Buku, Edensor. Tetralogi , tajuk yang lain : Laskar Pelangi, Sang Pemimpi, Edensor dan Maryamah Karpov. Buku 1 dan 2 aku beli waktu aku kat Jakarta dulu. You should read it if you love words- unique words, when combined become a sword that goes right through your heart.

I never loved any writers the same way I love Andrea Hirata.

deeper conversation

I wish I could look as happy as them.

Sure it breaks my heart, but in a way, i feel happy for them.

No, not happy-- but glad.

I don't understand myself. I don't know the reasons for how I feel now.

Jealousy?

Out of nowhere it appears. I later curse myself.

I wish I was the one living their fairy-tale.

I wish I'm happier.

Ouh. It is not the girl's position that I wanted.

No, never.

Its not the boy that I wanted.

But I wanted the picture. The calmness and serenity. The happiness and smiles.

Ouh, Aku merapik lagi. Kerja networking melambak tak siap. Sore, sore... I am left alone. Not because they don't care. But things happen unplanned. Sore ini, aku bersendirian. Sambil mendengar lagu di corong telinga aku yang sudah penat mendengar umpatan dunia, kata keji yang dilemparkan syaitan. Macam mana nak halau perasaan malas, bersenang-lenang, lagha nih?





I'm listening to deeper conversation. Perut pula lapar. Nak makan, tiada teman. Bosan, satu vocab yg sudah selari setiap petang. Kerja, oh kerja. Mengapa kau tak berkurang? Menyesakkan kepala aku.



Andrea Hirata, kau ilham, inspirasi. Nak capai ke level kau, akal aku kata, "oh, iqa kau x mungkin". Ayat-ayat kau buat aku menangis, kecewa sbb x dapat menulis sehebat kau. Aku sedapkan hati, : Tak apa. kau penulis unggul. Kau ada satu. ayat-ayat kau begitu saja, hanya kau yang mampu susun.



gotta go. bz, bz, bz.

immature

I came across this picture when I was browsing stranges-world. I had a good laugh and I like it immediately because it reminds me of the truth. Sometimes when you'r not mature, people don't like you. You make immature decisions; people starts to despise you. You say stupid things because you thought people will like you; it makes you a fool. You thought by being immature, people think you're cute; it makes you twice the fool you are.

Being crazy is good. But being childish, is NOT good. So, grow up.

Say nice things when you really mean it. Be good only when you intend to.

Throw away your pity, show them your true colours.

Smile if you feel like smiling. DONT if you hate.

I was once immature, but a friend taught me how to grow up.

idiots don't draw

nama : iqa popsie

pekerjaan : tiada

hobi : buang masa

location : pondok guard, kolej kediaman ketiga

sweater : biru, linda punye. (nampak besar sbb sweater)

payung : payung golf ayah pqa

cuaca : hujan, ribut petir

camera : hp pqa

jurugambar : syafiqah abd malek

situasi : tunggu org

situasi II : kebasahan

situasi III : kuyup

situasi IV : sejuk menggigil.

tujuan post : boring. (padehal keje melambak)

trademark : buat masa skrg, SAY YEAHH..

kejadian plg memalukan : ptg tadi, ketike mmbuat presentation

apa terjadi : memalukan diri sendr

* mempamerkan bakat seni lukis

* "I'm expecting more questions..." when at the same time, this stupid girl is actually an idiot

langkah-langkah : mandi hujan mlm tuh supaya bley erase suma memori

huhu.

i'm an idiot.

Pasar Malam

These is a picture of Mimi buying Murtabak at a Pasar Malam. Pasar Malam is a place where you can buy food, Malaysian food. See the other stall? I'm not sure what they were selling the other day but I think it's Nasi Ayam. Dunno how it taste like. Never bought it.

Pasar Malam is a wonderful place to be. I went there with Mimi yesterday and we had a great time checking out FOOD that we dont usually get in college. So, like two prowling tigers, we set our eyes on those food hungrily, stopping ourselves from buying everything in sight.

Beli murtabak dalam hujan,

Dalam hujan kita berjalan,

Kita tak berlari sebab segan,

Takut dikata mangsa kebuluran.

3.50

dah pukul 3. kenapa tak tidur ni iqa?
tak boleh tidur.
tak boleh tidur.
makan la ubat selsema. (xyzal)
tak cukup kuat. (menipu..padehal boleh buat pengsan)
ngada-ngada la kau ni.
mkn la ubat batuk.
ish. tak baik la.
dah,dah!
aku tak nak bergantung kat ubat-ubat nih.
bahaya ke?
tak tahulah. tapi aku sihat je walaupun dah sental banyak.
Effect masa depan?
Entah la, jangan banyak soal. aku tak tahu.
Emm...sekarang dah pukul berapa?
4 lebih.
Kenapa kau depan lappy lagi?
Dari aku terkebil-kebil atas katil, tak boleh tidur, baik aku buat assignment.
Tapi bukannya aku buat sangat pun, aku buat benda lain.
contoh : blog dan ketawa sorang-sorang.
Kau gila ke iqa?
Tak lah. Aku terjumpa benda yang kelakar masa tgh on9 nih.
Apa yg kelakar?
Hahahaha.....tolong jangan buat aku ketawa lagi.
Nafas semput, perut bagai dicucuk2, hati bagai digeletek.
Syukur aku tak terguling-guling kat karpet ni.

Hai, manusia-manusia.
Kau buat aku tergelak la.
Kau jadikan dunia nih circus.
Dan kau jadi clown.
Penontonnya - aku.
Oh, rupa-rupanya begitu.
Baru aku tahu kisah di sebalik batu.
Udang itu rupa-rupanya tersepit.
aku bukan gelakkan udang tu tersepit.
kesian dia. betul, aku kesian.
aku gelak sebab kebenaran itu jelas BENAR.
dah, aku malas nak bermain dengan kata-kata.


Pukul 3 pagi, 4 pagi.
aku bangun, idea pun ikut bangun.
segar macam mata aku.
teori itu kita praktikkan.
dan hasilnya nah,
seorang penulis yang gila.
mereng.
senget.
confused.
di sini dia MembebeL.


aku bersalah kepada si lembut dan longlai.
tetapi kerana dia, aku tahu kebenaran.


p/s Sekali lagi,aku seorang je yang faham.

i know i'm being totally absurd,but i don't care...

Can you see these cheeks?

Burning red and impossibly violet,

As red as an apple,

but darker and vulnerable,

oh, it feels hot as i blushed

embarassed as i flushed,

to take my eyes away;

is like a sin,

to look upon;

is like a shame.

You, a boy with dignity.

Does it feel right living without a name?

Without a trace,it seems shadowy.

I curse myself for being so clumsy.

If not, i'd been dancing this joy.

Chanting every hapiness,

In vocabulary of not another infatuation, but love.

Would i sacrifice it for lust?

P/s : A little note to Mimi. I hate the 'J' word, coz it makes me sound stupid. HAHA. (Although this post proves you right) Call me anything, but I know I'm 'P'.

To those with big hearts.

Oh, just so you know: 'P' is not Pervert.

~~only I could understand this.

a note.

As i ate my burger in front of my laptop (typing with one finger, and the other hand holding the burger- this process is called multitasking and some events might happen if you're clumsy and sloppy, like for instance just now, i dropped the sauce on my keyboard and it was pretty disgusting), i thought of the endless list that seems to be growing longer everday. How, I often ask myself, do I do everything on the list with so little time given? How do I avoid doing unneccessary things like bogging or editing the pictures with Photoscape so that I could upload it on my blog? What do I begin with? Most importantly, how do I stop myself from transporting my mind elsewhere, dreaming of things that couldnt have happened, and fantasizing of things that will never happen?time is precious and it waits for no man, not even me. To put your mind in some place called A while your body is still in a place called B, is what you do everyday. Thing is, if you could just do it for a few seconds, that is considered normal. What seems to bother me is that, I could do that for hours! Seriously said.

time is precious and waits for no man, definitely it doesnt wait for an empty-headed girl like me.

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

me : oh, clock, i wish i could freeze you.

clock : u can. take out my batteries.

me : what about the other clocks? they'd still be ticking.

clock : true. I didn't think about that. Why don't you talk to TIME?

me : oh, time, I wish I could freeze you.

time : why is that, little girl?

me : because 24 hours is not enough for me.

time : if you freeze me, the world will come to an end, precious darling.

me : does it really?

time : yes.

me : but can you wait for me?

time : No. i wait for no one.

me: what do i do? *wailing*

time : before I stop, before there is no more life, before there is nothing you could enjoy, before there is no more air to breathe, before i'm gone, why don't you love me, feel me, appreciate me, honour me, respect me, care for me?

me : ????

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Things to check in March:

1) database project

2) networking project

3) ASO presentation

4) morphogenesis presentation

5) dr amir's test

6) ASO report

7) database report

8) networking presentation

9) bengkel LI

10) revision

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n a hundred more to do!

GaerrrrrrghhhHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i go crazy.

malam anugerah KURSHIAH -

a dress to remember

a night to reminisce in years ahead

pictures to keep in mind

flowers to be left dry in a genie bottle.

and in ten years time as i hark back to these memories

the scent of every girl and every boy in the ballroom,

the smile on everone's face,

the glowing make-up on each girl (boy),

the teeth that flashes when laughing,

the many colours- RED, BLACK, BLUE, GREEN and WHITE,

the tears and the fight, the misery and some events,

the heels and shoes, sneakers,

the awesome dresses and jackets,

the not-so-scrumptious food,

the red-carpet

and the PEOPLE.

in pictures:

iqa, pqa, didi, linda onn (big thanks), azra, linda nanuwil, syira, mimi, nordin, azi, kak sad, kak yati, mukhlis, aisar (miller/hot gee thanks), esyam, lah ve, qiqi, syazana, big boolat, alang, din sabah, azura (you're the spotlight of the event), and many more-- sorry, i couldnt upload more photos. these are selected coz i look good in them.